Thursday, November 27, 2014

MY PREGGY STORY (PART IV - LAST)

Hi dearies..

Continue from PART III


THE IKHTIAR

Before we started our honeymoon travel year, ada la a few ikhtiar we did untuk cuba dpt baby.. saje2 je mana tau menjadi kan.. Meh i share sket2 mana yang i da try (and hampir try).. 

1. Buah zuriat
My mom's fren pegi mekah (not sure umrah or haji) and so my mom pesan belikan air zamzam, akar fatimah and some buah zuriat. My mom bagi i buah zuriat dlm 4bijik tak silap. I have no idea why i tak guna pun nie.. simpaannn je kat dapur tapi x buat ape, ntah le taktau nape hati x tergerak nak pakai ni.. tapi utk u all boleh la cuba, khasiat dia banyak..


2. Urut Bidan
Ok yang ni tak plan pun.. xsilap this was the first year of marriage.. I was just following my SIL time tu sbb anak dia position songsang time tu, so jumpe la sorang makcik yang consider like family fren la sbb my in laws dah lama kenal makcik ni... dia mmg terer urut2 ni and selaku bidan la jugak.. so masa urutkan my SIL tu, my MIL suh i try jumpa skali la makcik ni.. so makcik ni xbuat ape pun, just tgk perut i and then scan.. urut sket2 je la like more to touching sikit2 and then buat pergerakan 'dial' ikut pusingan jam kat pusat.. She said im OK, takde masalah...cyst mmg ada tapi insyallah OK xde ape.. Ok time tu happy la kan, kira mcm ada chance.. hehe.. 

i think after that ade jumpa lagi skali, and she did the same thing too.. and ckp ada sumthing yg dia xsure apa, tapi mcm 'gangguan' jugak la..like ada sumthing yg 'ganggu' i from being happy and dpt baby... tp dia xleh nak figure out ape and xnak explain in detail.. i pon xsure maksud dia tu dari segi perasaan i ke, cyst i ke, makhlus halus ke,org buat ke.. she pesan dont overthink about it, just relax buat mcm biasa.. and try to loose weight.. hahaa.. i think dia just doa2 ape patut and suruh dtg balik (which we never did-xtau nape) haha ;p


3. Metformin
Oops ni bukan yg dadah tu yer.. tu Metaformin, ni metformin... this is actually ubat untuk org diabetic utk loose weight and kurangkan sugar kot.. And studies said that metformin also ada good side effect utk org pcos..and da ramai doctors and gynea use this for pcos and fertility treatment.. Since my sis doctor kat klinik kesihatan, i had an endless supply of this.. tapi i took dlm 6bulan in my 1st year of marriage je..lepas tu byk kali skip2 sbb slalu pening..


4. Family & Friend's Doa
Ok ni mcm biase la, kalau ada sape2 kite kenal nak gi umrah or haji, i akan pesan mintak tolong doakan untuk kami. Sbb slalunye these people (relatives) akan tanye xde anak lagi kee? so i always answer..blum ada rezeki, doa-doakanlah untuk kami yeee.. hehe ;p And kebetulan ada a few pegi umrah/haji, so we all mintak tlg doakan sekali.. :)


5. Berbisik kat newborn baby
Ok ni my SIL yang share ngan i.. bila jumpa relative atau frens yg baru deliver, bile melawat and tgk newborn baby.. bisik kat baby, mintak tlg doakan untuk kita.. So i bile jumpe je newborn baby, i bisik.. 
"Assalamualaikum baby X, doakan untuk aunty ye supaya dpt baby juge..aunty nak merasa dpt jadi parents and rasa dpt baby comel mcm baby X.. aunty doakan baby membesar dgn sihat, jadi anak soleh/solehah, pandai dan berjaya..tq baby X "


6. Langkawi (tasik dayang bunting)


Ok ni paling bessttttt i nak share... Consider this was my last ikhtiar before our rezeki finally came.. Before i plan beli flight tickets for our 'cuti2 Msia', i heard a lot of stories about this place.. And those people yang share tu adalah orang2 i kenal, which is my SIL and her frens, and also a few frens.. Mostly they all yg pegi tu all da 2-4tahun kawen, and alhamdulillah balik je masing2 preggy...my SIL got to know she's preggy few months after balik dari Langkawi and followed by other frens (beza minggu and bulan je). im like, reaaaaally?? Ok la da nama jakun kan, tapi taknak terlalu taksub sangat cos it's just a myth. Tapi x salah kalau kite cuba as ikhtiar untuk niat yg baik kan? So i decided to go to langkawi utk hornymoon, celebrate our 2nd anniversary and my bday.. sbb both pon xpenah langsung pegi langkawi..

If u all nak tau what i did there, baca sini ok..hehe..
Cop sebelum tu, bukan nak promote benda2 tahyul tau, for me i consider as ikhtiar and niat kena betul.. Bukan nak ckp i fully percaya i pregnant sbb gi Langkawi ni, sbb rezeki semua from Allah..ni cuma ikhtiar aje..
*refer full experience HERE*

THE TEST RESULT

After 3months lepas langkawi trip tu, Alhamdulillah dgn izin Allah, both us received good news.. Alhamdulillah gembira tak terkata.. mmg nak nangis berguling2 sbb happy sgt.. 

My mom la notice mula2..tp x ckp.. time tu the whole family pegi kerteh visit my parents (my dad keje sana).. i 1st day sampai da mcm xde selera sgt nak makan..but i thot sbb sumthing wrong with my tummy or sbb tired ke ape (week before was my SIL's wedding)... Time tu ada gak rasa mcm nak beli tester cos kebetulan dah 2months plus x period, tapi malas.. hehe..

So bile da balik KL, masuk keje dulu sehari... i decided ok lah beli test!mmg mula2 mmg mcm xnak test lgsungggg (majuk kat diri sendri sbb xnak kecewa lagi), tapi saje la beli gak nak tauuu kann.. Bangun2 pagi masa nak bersiap gi keje, shishi dulu kat test pastu mandi.. tu pun xnak lagi tgk.. biarrrr je kat tepi.. 

bila abes mandi, tengok2 result
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POSITIVE!!!
im like, seriously???? Trus menangis sbb happy sgt.. terus masuk bilik dgn keadaan menangis kejutkan hubby.. Hubby baru bgn mcm blur2 and takut tgk i nangis.. dia pelik la tgk nape wifey tetiba nangis awal2 pagi.. 

"Sayanngg..wuuwuuu..kite dapat baby..wuuuwuuu" nangis teresak esak...sambil tunjuk test.. terus hubby terduduk terkejut and peluk i.. i nangis mcm nak berguling je rasa.. byk kali alhamdulillah syukur sbb xsangka sgt2222 dgn keadaan i yang camni.. mmg sampai skang rasa happy tu tak terkata..i just cant forget the feeling until now.. So that day terus amek cuti untuk pegi clinic to double confirm and do checkup and all.. 

alamak even now typing air mata bergenang now..huhu..
*break jap-lap air mata-whatsapp hubby*

Ok sambung balik.. bila da balik dari clinic, i trus call my parents to share the happy news..  my mom and dad bile dgr je i ckp "assalamualaikum mama daddy, xlama lagi dpt lagi satu cucu.."  trus non stop alhamdulilllah allahuakbar sumer2 tu kuar.. mmg my mom punye suara pun i boleh tau mcm tersekat2 cos happy and tak sangka i finally pregnant.. mmg happy sgt2222... my mom trus ckp, haa tu la mama masa u all kat kerteh da prasan da..tapi mama xnak ckp sbb xnak buat sedih ke ape.. tapi alhamdulillahhhhh....

alamak rasa sedih lagi part ni..huuhuuuuuu
*break jap-lap air mata*

So this is the test.. Alhamdulillah syukur Ya Allah.. 
memang until now tak sangka sangat2.. Syukur kerana memberi peluang kepada kami untuk merasa menjadi parents.. kerana memberi peluang untuk mendapat anugerah tak terhingga ni.. 

So my frens, if u are still trying to conceive, pleaseee dont give up.. Insyallah peluang dan rezeki tu ada... Tak kisah la bertahun pun, insyallah mesti 1% chance mesti ada... I have gone through a lot, with 1 ovary and another ovary with pcos.. Alhamdulillah berjaya pregnant.. Sorry, i bukan niat nak menunjuk, but i want to share my experience to all..I hope my story boleh jadi inspiration for all.. :) 

There's still hope..insyallah....Dont give up ok?! Try all your best, ada byk ikhtiar kat luar tu.. I doakan sekali utk u all supaya dpt merasa ape yg i rasa.. nah i jangkitkan kat u all.. :D

After married 2 and a half years, and 31 years old (going to be 32)...
Alhamdulillah starting from this point, our new journey has started.... :)

Alkisah novel MY PREGGY STORY da tamat.. 
after this citer pasal journey dia plak..my experience throughout preggy nie..lain org, lain experience kan?..huhu.. 

ok till then bebehs, daaaaa~~



meowluv~

MY PREGGY STORY (PART III)

Salam alls..

Eh lama plak tak update...nak sambung plak about my preggy story nih.. part III plak.. 

*WARNING - super long entry mcm novel daaaa*

Actually nak share i punye MRI pics of ovarian cyst tu, tapi xtau mane lak letak..kat umah parents kot.. but i just bagi a rough figure how it looks like..
 yeaa something like this.. ada byk copies actually, every segment dorang scan.. ni dari atas (as in head ke kaki), and then depan and tepi pun ada.. kinda scary kan..huhuuuu...

The shape and size of my cyst was like a a small mineral bottle..mcm botol spritzer 500ml tu..haaaaa gile tak.... T_T
Just imagine, something that big in your body and u tak tau about it?? homaigaaadd... bila da go through this baru i tau ada la tanda2 yg i xprasan selama ni... dah mentioned in PART I but xpe share lagi.. hehe

Unusual hair growth
Weight Gain
Hormone Imbalance
Bloating Tummy

lagi satu i x share in PART I, i notice ada stretch mark kat perut kiri i.. memanjang ke atas.. satu line jer.. not so obvious, but u bleh nampak la..
sedihkan..

Pastu best part, the operation done untuk buangkan cyst tu mcm operation orang beranak.. dia potong area bwh perut tu,panjang la jugak..sbb instead of buang yg kiri, they all have to 'korek' tgk ovary yg sebelah kanan gak cos takut2 ada trace of cyst or anything else gak kan..huhu..

THE POST RECOVERY 

After the surgery, spent around another 2nights kat hospital.. Nak bergerak tu Ya Allah seksa sgtttt.. nak berjalan lagiiiiii la susah.. mcm nenek bongkok 3 sbb u xleh nak straightkan badan.. my vontot sampai da biru bengkak2 sbb asyik mintak jab pain killer.. i wonder how la mommies yg buat czer boleh kuatkan diri bergerak demi anak..huhuuuuu...sgt2 respect..

My recovery was around 3months..dapat cuti MC 3bulan.. hospital bagi ubat painkiller, ubat luka dalaman and ubat poopoo... other than that they advice to take hormone pills untuk stabilize my hormones (since ovary tinggal 1 je kan), tapi temporary not needed. They advice few months later can start if i have irregular period. Kalau period ok no need dulu..

Agak lama gak la i tak take hormone supplement ke ape, cos my period was regular.. Bertahun2 la gak...until la i jumpe my soulmate aka hubby (in 2010 xsilap) i noticed something wrong.. My period was noticeably irregular and i bleh rasa lain macam.. and hati tu kuat rasa mcm ada cyst lagi...

Dah la me and my meowgagah time tu da start planning nak serious and plan nak kawen...so worry tu mmg lebih la..risau kot2 hubby xnak kawen org yg mandul ke, kot2 family dia nak dia dpt anak cepat ke.. u never know kan? So my eldest sis yg doctor tu suggest to do checkup..She bagi i referal letter and suruh terus pegi this one lab place kat kelana jaya...lupa nama tempat tu, tapi hospitals and gov clinics slalu refer to that place sbb free.. 

So the result? Yeap result is positive. Rasa hancur luluh weyyyyy.. da la satu je ovary tinggal, and that one and only ovary pon ada cyst? Ya Allah byknye dugaan.. T_T After result dapat from my sister, it's not cyst(yg besar) it's PCOS yg kecik2 kat ovary kite. like water bubbles in and around your ovary.. 


More info via Mr Oogley (Google)

It's not that serious sampai nak kena operate, but still???? that's something bad jugak la kannnnn...cos da la ovary kiri takde, now kanan got prob.. sedeyyyyy.. I mcm downnnn sgt2 cos i thought i takkan dpt baby.. my family and all mmg support, even my meowgagah pon i told him the truth...and asked his mom (my MIL now) whether they all boleh terima tak.. Alhamdulillah they all very supportive and terima i.. *terharu*

For the whole 1 year, i had this to regularkan my hormones and period...
This was given by my gynea, Dr Delaila (Subang)... Rasenye dalam kepala i it's Diane95, tapi bile google keluar Diane35 le plaks.. whatever la but it's this one la.. Dengan this ubat, my period regular and as what people always say, badan naik.. yes badan naik.. tp kulit rambut and all cun la..

After kawen, i stopped taking this ubat sbb nak try conceive kan.. Sbb hormone pills kan mcm birth control gak kan.. so i stopped and xbuat plak follow up on my cyst (bodoh tul)... i plak stopped jumpe Dr Delaila for a certain reason.. yes bodo sgt.. T_T

ALLAH KNOWS BEST



Years passed by, no baby... 1st year agak stressed, cos trying xdpt.. just imagine how many pregnancy tests i da pakai.. siap simpan plak tu.. hahaaa... every single time bile rasa period lambat, trus beli and check.. and then kechewaaaaa... jeles tgk member2 lain sumer preggy and dpt baby.. 


contoh tests yang diambil.. lagi banyakkk dari ni okkkkkehhhhh...

The stress makin lama makin makan diri.. asyik kechewa je kan.. da la time tu age nak masuk 31.. rasa mcm omg im 31 but xdpt baby.. any small2 symptoms i trus ingatkan preggy ke ape, tapi tidak.... siap discuss ngan hubby kalau tak boleh dpt baby kite try la biodex ke, iui ke, ivf ke, anak angkat ke.. Hubby plak was very222 supportive, he's ok with anything and xde stress kan i pun.. he said kite go with the flow and jgn stress... even family pon sama supportive (cos they all da tau my condition kan), siap ckp jgn ada anak dulu, enjoy duluuu! haha... 

So in the end, after dengar nasihat family and frens, i sedar diri and pikir, u know what, be positive, no more stress, go with the flow, enjoy dulu, pasrah and redha.. Insyallah kalau ada rezeki, ada lah tu... Kalau takde, means Allah have better plans for us.. or Allah knows best, maybe kite nie tak ready dari segi mentally and financially.. u never know kan? 

So from there i planned that our 2nd year of marriage will be honeymoon and travel year.. Trus beli flight tickets to Langkawi, Redang, Singapore.. Kononnye 2014 (this year) will be our travel year.. Cuti cuti malaysia gitew.. I senyap2 je beli tickets time murah, and then bile bday hubby (nov 2013) i surprised him..heeheeeee.. ;p

Maka bermulalah 2014 dengan lembaran yang baru.. 
our 'fun' year.. kalau tak dpt gak, 2015 baru kite start to do something.. 
That was our plan...

*To be continued - PART IV*






meowluv~

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

7 MONTHS!! :)

Hi aunties and uncles..

*iklan sampingan jap*

Just dropping by to say hello...! :)

I'm already 7months..!! Today mommy masuk 29weeks.. 3rd trimester here we come! :)

Doakan yang terbaik for us yaaaa... :)

3D4D scan last 2weeks...

Lepas ni my mommy will sambung pasal her preggy stories..hikhik..
byeeee~~~


meowluv~